Dear Big Brother

I know Mommy always tell you “He is only 4 years old” Well, sometimes I even hear her telling Daddy that so you are NOT alone. 

 I am 4 years old. My mind doesn’t work like yours yet and I have no Volume on my mouth. Sometimes you lose your patience with me and want me to leave you alone. I hear Mommy telling Daddy it’s because you are still just a kid too, because sometimes I think people forget that about you. 

I want to be like you. I love you and think you are the greatest. I think you will be my Hero forever.

I want you to try and remember a few things about being 4. 

I just want to be loved all the time. I want to talk all the time and have all the attention. It’s ok that I have my own opinions. It’s ok that I LOVE John Deere tractors and country music. I love to laugh and act silly even when it makes no sense. I am a goofball. You don’t have to correct everything all the time, sometimes I use my imagination. It’s ok to color outside the lines, get paint on my hands or give a Daddy 6 eyeballs in my drawing. I like to do things myself. I like to set the table and it’s ok that it’s not just the way Mommy does it or I’m slow at it. I am messy and I am picky. I am particular. I am funny and it’s ok to laugh at me. I want you to be silly and make me laugh at you.  I am creative and compassionate. I do things at my own pace. It’s ok for you to slow down and try things at my pace too.

I like to help you and sometimes you should let me and not care that it takes you twice as long. I feel sad when you leave and I can’t go. I might cry and it’s not “weird” it’s because I will miss you.  It doesn’t matter how many times I have seen Cars I still like it and it’s ok to watch it again. I hate taking showers even though I LOVE getting dirty and that all makes no sense, but that’s ok.  I say Mommy is my girlfriend and you said she’s not, but she said you use to say that too. I misbehave sometimes and maybe that’s not ok but it is only because I am 4 and probably tired. I get over tired but don’t want to get tucked in and that’s normal at my age.

Sometimes being 4 is hard and I bet being 14 is hard sometimes too. Sometimes the things I do don’t make sense to you and that’s why Mommy reminds you that I am only 4. I heard you ask Mommy if she was going to use that excuse forever “Oh he’s only 15”, well she might, you know how she is, but you do have to remember you will always be 10 years ahead of me and I will always be trying to catch up. 

 I will always think you are the best Big Brother in the whole wide world and I love you so much maybe even 199 eyeballs much.