"The Hat"

You have to believe in certain things. You have to believe, to keep yourself from thinking you’re crazy. You have to believe that the people you lost but loved the most are always with you especially when you need them the most.  So many, too many things have happened since my Dad passed that makes me believe is he is beside me and watching over not only me but my family.

  I have told the stories before, (for my new page followers this is a brief recap) that my youngest son was 2yo when my father passed away suddenly. He is now almost 5years old.  He randomly asks questions, says things and remembers facts/ details that no 2year old would ever remember. He does and says these things mostly when it’s just him and I. There have been a few occasions when my Husband, older son or my Mom have been around that he blurts something out. Like most recently, last week we were all in the car and he randomly says “I Miss Pop” and says a few random things about heaven.  The week before that I was driving my older son to practice and we hear from the backseat as we pass a cemetery “Is that where Pop’s rock is, Can we see Pop”…… my older son just stares at me, waiting for me to say something.  

So, this morning. I am finishing getting things ready to head out the door and he comes up to me with a visor he found in the bottom of my bedroom closet upstairs. 

His exact words were (4yo):  “this reminds me of that hat Pop had for driving but without a top on it” (as he is using his hands to pretend to drive.)

Me: What was he driving?  

4yo: A boat, you know when I would wear the life jacket, Hey I wonder if that life jacket still fits me, I might need a new one. 

I bring him to the downstairs coat closet and find my Dad’s hat that my Mother had given me to keep. I pull it out….

Me: Is this the hat you mean?

4yo: Yes, that’s it, (his eye light up big as saucers). He takes the hat; he puts it on his head.

Me: You can wear it if you want

4yo: No, I need you to put this back right where it was. I will wear it tomorrow and I think I am going to need a new life jacket.

Me: Ok, when we go to camp, we will try on your life jacket and see if it fits.

That was it. He changed the subject and we went to school. 

The way I have been feeling lately I have to say the timing could not have been more perfect. He’s still with me and he’s apparently telling Tanner it’s time to get a new life jacket this year...... Camp/Safety tips from Heaven. 

My Dad was a man of few words; but just like when he was here, he knows when to speak up, when I need him most and this morning was no exception.  

Always Believe.